Ricardo Sevilla's Blog

A work of art which did not begin in emotion is not art.

"Kudos to myself, for after all I have been through,

I still manage to live with driving passions, love in my heart, and the curiosity of a child." -RS

Snow Patrol - Live at Seminole Hard Rock



This is it. They are starting to play one of the two songs I wanted to see performed live. My heart begins to slow down a bit. The crowd cheers loudly and everyone around us starts to stand up. The band, having just recruited thousands of fans to sing along, continues playing.


I remain on my seat... while all others stand, waving their hands, and singing along. I get a lump in my throat, not expecting the surge of memories to flow back. Some good memories, some bittersweet ones, some that I thought have all been but forgotten, but all worthy of defining the person I am today. There is something spectacular, listening to this song, play live. It's almost as if I'm hearing it for the first time, yet at the same time, for the thousandth time. 


She reaches down to me and asks me why in the world am I sitting down. 


"Come on, get up!"


She grabs my arm and pulls me up. 


"If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and forget the world?" sings the band. 


And as I stand, looking at them perform, I turn to my right side and see her singing along with a huge smile on her face, arms swaying back and forth. I can't help but smile too, and I continue looking at the band perform. Both hands in my pockets. 


I was there, but at the same time, I was not. I was somewhere else, in a different time, and as a different person... bleeding.


Moments later, I feel a massive hug from behind, bringing me back where I am supposed to be.


Little did she know, just how badly I needed that.








I smile at her, and she smiles back. 

A face I never thought I would see again.


"I missed you."


"I missed you too."

The distance of time mercifully allowing me to forget.

Yet, decides to bring back everything in an instant.


And under new circumstances,


The cruel vision of a garden bursting into life.





It's never too late to apologize


There will be times when people you care about disappoint you, and those times can hurt. What do you do when this happens to you?  If an apology is given to you, and you feel it be sincere, do you still walk away?


In the past, I would. However, I now understand that forgiveness is a beautiful thing. I know so many people that will fight to the bitter end, to prove they are right and forget the big picture. When someone places their ego aside, in search for something bigger than themselves, that is something I inherently respect, admire, and to be honest... value. Even if someone is wrong, the simple act of putting aside what happened for the sake of a friendship/relationship is rare. It's a form of effort, and in the end, that is ALL that matters.


So I chose to forgive her.


That night, after I put my daughter to bed, I sat on my couch, finished my glass of wine, pulled out my phone, and re-read our conversation. And I felt happy. 


Congrats to Yuselys and Gabriel

Drove to Gainsville this past weekend to celebrate the gender reveal of this amazing woman's baby. Very happy for you Yusely and Gabriel, especially since both of you always wanted a little girl!